Infertility may come as a curse to many around the world. Still, the only thing you need to remember during the process is that you are not alone. There are many like you around who are battling out with the demons of infertility with full force. Being a 30-year-old, I planned a baby with my husband two years back. While I knew something somewhere wasn’t right, I still stayed hopeful of achieving the desired results.
That said, the idea of having a family has always brought warmth to my heart. Since childhood, I dreamt of the days when I’d have little kids running around in my house. However, as life often does, my journey took unexpected twists and turns in years to come.
My Personal Battle with Infertility
Initiating the war against Infertility- how did it all start?
Being an intended parent I always thought that when my partner and I decided to start a family, it would happen without any issues. Moreover, after a year of trying without success, I got a bit doubtful about the entire journey till now. “Maybe we just need more time,” I thought. But after two years, that seed had grown into a tree of anxiety and concern.
My husband and I decided that it was time to seek medical advice. So, after a series of tests, the doctor confirmed my fears – infertility. “I remember how the word seemed to echo in the sterile room, a heavy truth that I wasn’t prepared for. The cause was identified as Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS), a common issue many women face”
A few months later, the journey that followed was filled with a cyclone of emotions. That said, some days were brought hope, while others were overshadowed with despair. Besides, there were times when I felt alone, despite being surrounded by my partner and family. I’d think, “Why me? I found solace in online communities, where I realized that many were walking the same difficult path as I was”
Getting started with the tests and treatment process!
“My partner and I then thought of seeking some trusted fertility treatments. Also, the first step was Clomid, a medication to help with ovulation. Every month, my hopes soared with the promise of a positive pregnancy test, only to crash down with disappointment. The emotional toll was immense. “Stay strong,” I told myself, “This is just the beginning.”
Being a couple, we then started our journey with another ART method known as Intrauterine Insemination (IUI). Moreover, the process was invasive and often left me feeling like a science experiment rather than an intended mother. Moreover, after multiple failed attempts, we had to gather our courage and consider other options like IVF.
My First Encounter with In Vitro Fertilization!
I have heard a lot about IVF in the news and on random billboards around my city. That said, this was a physically and emotionally draining process for my husband and I. The hormone injections, the frequent doctor’s appointments, the unbearable two-week wait – everything became an unending part of my life. Also, my life revolved around those syringes, medication, and an ever-present hope.
Still, I’ll never forget the moment when, after our second IVF cycle, I saw those two beautiful lines on the pregnancy test. After all these years, tears of joy streamed down my face. “We did it,” I whispered to myself, “We finally did it.”
“Sadly, my journey took another unexpected turn when I experienced a miscarriage a few weeks later. The grief was unbearable. Yet, in the midst of this storm, I found strength within me that I never knew existed”
My husband and I then decided to bring my experiences into encouragement. Also, while speaking openly about my journey, I found consolation and power in connecting with others. Moreover, I became involved in support groups, sharing my story and hearing theirs. “Every voice matters,” I realized, “and every story is a ray of hope for someone else.”
Seeking the path of Surrogacy to achieve parenthood!
As my husband and I continued our journey, we thought about opting for surrogacy. Well, the idea that there were different paths to parenthood opened up a world of possibilities for me. Still, being honest, It wasn’t easy, and each option came with its own set of challenges. Yet, we were determined and thus scheduled our first appointment with a local surrogacy agency.
During the first interaction, we were briefed about the random procedures and methods of surrogacy. While it did sound hopeful, it also brought a list of challenges on its way. Moreover, there was a high level of stress and anxiety that accompanied me through. My husband and I went through random tests and diagnosis before signing the agreement. Afterwards, we picked the best surrogate mother that rightly fit our expectations and values.
After the key procedures involving IVF, we felt happy knowing that the surrogate was pregnant. Still, I had this little insecurity in my mind given my past miscarriage. Luckily, it all went well and after 8 months, our surrogate gave birth to a beautiful angel.
Also, throughout this journey, I learned invaluable lessons about patience, resilience, and hope. Moreover, I understood that family can be formed in various ways and that the journey to parenthood is unique for everyone.
My Message to Others!
For anyone out there reeling with the demons of infertility, do remember that you are not alone. Also, it’s okay to feel a mix of emotions during this process. Also, you should be patient and it’s okay to seek support from professionals and loved ones.
Besides, my journey hasn’t been easy and came as a big learning for me. Still, I’ve learnt to find joy in little moments and that is my biggest victory. Additionally, Infertility is a part of my story, but I also know that it doesn’t define me.
So, I often remind others to Stay hopeful, and strong, and remember that your story is uniquely yours”. Also, it’s a mantra that has kept me grounded, and I hope it brings comfort to others walking a similar path.
In sharing my story, I wish to extend a big helping hand to all those exploring the dark waters of infertility. Remember that you’re stronger than you know, and no matter how your journey to parenthood unfolds, you should be gentle with yourself and keep hope alive.